Creating Your Own Round Table

Background

Most people generalize when they become aware that they have treated someone poorly or behaved in a way that is less than ideal. Internal dialogues include such comments as, “What a jerk I am” or “Boy, I seem to stick one foot in my mouth, then the other” or “I just don't know how to communicate well” or “People are too sensitive. I can't deal with them” or “What's wrong with me?”

The one “transgression” that the person notices gets generalized to internal character assassination. An alternative approach that creates much more spaciousness, self-compassion, and acceptance revolves around identifying the internal character or self-style that took control and did damage.

Sagan's idea of self-styles is an effective approach to localize rather than generalize. Consider this: If I have identified a cast of characters inside myself, then I can identify one character, an aspect of myself, that is responsible for the insensitive behavior.

When I've identified which internal character got out of hand, then I can begin to explore this character using the path from awareness to acceptance.

Introduction

When I first learned about self-styles, I imagined that all my internal characters were sitting around a round table. There was a backstage closet in which characters that I had not yet identified or accepted were locked.

Round Table image

Directions

Draw a round table with empty circles. Include a backstage closet also.

Part A:

Get in a comfortable position and close your eyes. Have your blank round table, blank paper, and a writing utensil nearby so you can use them as thoughts, feelings, and images bubble up.

Think about yourself in a variety of situations. As you become aware of different states that you get into, jot down a phrase that best describes your attitude or behavior such as whining, distracted, ebullient, silly, etc. Without judging them, simply write a few words or phrases.

Write at least 10. Make sure some reflect positive attitudes and behaviors you have as well as those characteristics with which you (and/or others) have difficulty.

Part B:

After completing the process above and writing your responses for each, now reflect on each. How does your body feel when that attitude or behavior takes over? How does your voice sound? What kinds of things do you say or think? How do you walk or move when this state inhabits you?

Again, jot down some descriptors that go with these images. Then, allow yourself to create descriptive names for each character. For instance, whining might turn into Whiny Wendy or Whiny Walter; distracted might turn into Flighty Fellow; ebullient might turn into Bubbles, etc. Make sure the name evokes that character in you.

Write the name of your character in one of the circles in your round table.

If there are some qualities, attitudes, and behaviors that don't fit into a character, for now, put them into your back stage closet.

Enjoy the journey. The more you bring all parts of yourself into your consciousness and shine the light on them, the more joyful and free you will feel.

As you notice any changes or run into any challenges, please post on the blog.

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